It's been so long........

Oh My Word!!!!!!! Such a lot has happened since i wrote something here!!!! Well, i don't even know what to say!

It was my daughters birthday in May...... In July we (me and Mr Bushwacker) moved in together, in a awesome house! I was in Mosambique, then Zimbabwe and in Inhambane........ All before we moved in together!

I got divorced also and so now we are together without anything standing in our way! I am so happy!!!! I have met the one that makes me whole, that completes me! We like the same things, we start our sentences and then they are the same, we think of the same stuff at the same time! How awesome is that!? To be so in tune with the one you love??????

I love it when he works at home...... Just to watch him while he works and how to see how pasionate he is about what he does! I know that he is THE one I want to grow old with !!!!!!

Off course there is always some curveballs coming our way, with ex spouses and children thrown in, but as long as we are standing together and always has each others backs, we are strong!!!! Sometimes I do feel a bit left out where his children is concerned, but that will also get better!

I have so much to write, but I have so much to do too....... I am going to make us some nice breakfast now...... I am so excited about this weekend as we are alone a bit..... no kids(or so I hope), just spending some time alone! I crave to just be with him all the time!!!!! I just want to breath him in and keep all of him to myself! Is that maybe a bit selfish??????

Well see you later my friend!!!!!!!!
xxx

Come and gone......

Well, he came back early........and left again yesterday(9th May). Man, we had a busy, awesome time......

• I met all his friends.....At the Palms(very nice restaurant) On the Wednesday night he cam back(27th April)


• I met so may people over about 2 weeks, that I am still trying to put them all together!


• He would have come back only on the 29th, but hey, I had him an extra 2 days!


• On Sunday the 1st May we went to Doodles..... Man, that was an awesome night! there I met all the other friends I still havn't met yet!


• Our first 'couples' pics was taken too...... STUNNING!!!!!!


• On Monday morning....... We had to tell his parents about us as they came home early.....


• That went fine....... But on my side it was much more difficult!


• On the 4th we actually found our house!!!!! Can you believe it???? First house we walked into, and it is as if it wasmade for us!


• We showed our kids and they also liked it......


• Then it was the big work function on the 5th..... In Paarl..... What a night!


• And then our first problems started..... with the kids being overwhelmed........ So, we stepped back and took stock..... We decided to spend some time with our respective children and man, I felt like a child wanting to through a huge tantrum!!!!!


• It was bad not being with him knowing that our time is short before he has to flyout again!


• But, our children needed us first! And thatis just what we did!


• So on Saturday morning I took my daughter to my mom, because we had tickets to go and see The Stormers play on Newlands!!!!! My first time ever there!!!!! It was something you can't explain to someone else if they haven't been there!!!!!!


• Then, he booked us in a hotel, and we ended up just staying in, and being together!!!!


• Best thing that we did.......


• We went to pick up my daughter and then went to Canal Walk and home again. And that evening we went out again.....




• Monday morning saw us picking up his passport and then we spent a last little quality time together!

Man, driving away there nearly broke my heart! Luckily I could keep my tears in till after he past me with is car!

It has been a wirlwind few days, and inbetween I told my husband as well that I am seeing someone else...... So, now I am trying to get all my stuff packed up, and ready to move.....

I love this man so much! I would lay my life down in a heartbeat for him! We breath as one, our hearts beat as one, and we have so much passion and electricity together.......

9 Weeks is a long strech, but luckily we will have a holiday inbetween all of this!

He is safe in Deepest Darkest Africa again, my Mr Bushwacker reporting for duty again!

LOVE YOU BABY!!!!!!!!

4 Days to go!

Whoop,Whoop!!!!! Only 4 more days, till I get to be in his arms again!!!!!!! My word, this feels like an eternity!

• Now, there is a song that we have........ And normaly he says it's from him to me, but today this is how I feel!

Hearts, burning like they were on fire

Lanes, changing our love to desire.....

Hey, my heart is screaming to say, girl,we got to go all the way....

I need more of you, changing my rain into sun

More of you, putting my blues on the run.

I need more of you,darling I need more of you.

More, anything less wouldn't do!

We, ain't been together to long

It's strange, How did our love get so strong?

There's, nothing to keep us apart,

We got to catch up to our hearts!

I need more of you, changing my rain into sun,

More of you, putting my blues on the run.

I need more of you, darling I need more of you,

More, anything less wouldn't do!!!!

• I am smitten! I can't help it, I don't care what other people say!


• I only wish that are more people on earth that can experience this feeling.....


• This is my 'high'!


• He is my 'high'!

My love.......

Eternally yours!

Conversations.......

Man, this is killing me........ He is SSSOOOO far away from me...... I mean distance wise, not deep inside.....

• We are miles and miles apart


• But, we are actually one........


• I mis his touch, his breath on my skin, his eyes on me....


• Only one week, then he will be here for a few days!


• Just a week.......


• my heart is beating faster and faster when I think that he will be here then


• How did I become this person I am now?

He awakened all of my senses with one look and one touch!

So, when we speak over the phone we are talking house hunting....... and I'm ecstatic.... I'm stil married, but are looking so forward in beginning a new life.......

So I'm of tommorrow to give my (ex)husband a letter that I wrote for him, and I am crossing fingers that he understands where I'm coming from and that we can solve this thing without too much hiccups and stress!

I love you Mr xoxoxo

Progress......

• Well, om Monday we went to see the marriage councelour....... I was so terrified..... Opening up to a stranger? Phew, tall order for me who keeps everything to myself.


• It was actually fine, no monster jumping out from behind the couch and biting my head off.


• I opened up and let out sooooo many stuff that was in there. It felt lebberated!


• She also told me that I have to get myself healed before I cam move on.....


• So he was not very impressed, but there is nothing that he can do to change my mind!


• i have NEVER felt so headstrong and focussed on what I need and what I want to do!

Now, this morning when i left the house to go and meet my scrapbuddies, I was on such a high!!!! I was singing and dancing(yes) in the car on my way to the class! I got some funny glances, but WTH I don't dive a damn!

I have life back, I feel on top of the world and on cloud nr9! And it is all because of one appointment!

• Now back to Mr Bushwacker..... He is constantly on my mind! If I hear his chime on my phone, I start getting the shakes! Good shakes!


• I can see us doing all this nice things together, like normal day to day stuff!


• Making a herb garden for nice food, creating dishes in the kitchen, playing with our kids in the pool and out in the backyard....


• Going for walks on the beach, with the kids playing in the waves, dogs running wild......


• hugging each other, in the sunset on the beach


• Kissing him under the shining moon!


• What more can a girl want? He makes my heart beat, to the same rythm as his heart!


• He touches my hand and I feel like I'm on fire........


• My heart skips a beat when I here him on the other side of the phone


• I find him the most sexy man I have ever laid my eyes(and hands) on...... because he 'gets' me


• I don't have to be someone I'm not, I can just breath around him!


• For years I have had so many defences built up around me, but wih one look he broke them all down! With one dance I was al his! No doubt about that!


• My everything belongs to him!!!!!!!


• I love him eternally!

Well that"s all for now.........

How's this????

Well, listening to some music, I nearly fainted when I heard this one! This is his'wife' he says, loves her music to bits. Juanita de Plessis. Is dit jy? Dit was lank gelede Ek onthou nog jou soen Maar ons was nog so jonk Wou nog so baie doen Het my lewe lank altyd gewonder, geraai Wie die regte een sou wees Met jou foto steeds teen my kamermuur Staan jy jare later hier Is dit jy wat weer in my drome dwaal Is dit jy, Is dit jy wat weer in my kop kom maal Want ek dink net aan jou Is dit jy wat my hart in jou hande hou Is dit jy, Is dit jy wat die son weer om my sal vou Want ek dink, ja ek dink net aan jou Soos die suidewind, het jy deur my kom waai In 'n oogwink, het jy als omgedraai Toe jy my kom groet met jou glimlag soet Kon ek dit in jou oe lees Al was dit al die jare terug of hier en nou Dis bedoel om te wees! If these words does not say it all, I don't know..........

Being apart

Now, as you can see, I am quite smitten with this awesome man! There is this saying: 'Over the wall with sokkies and all'...... We'll guess what, that is me. My world has been turned upside down in a matter of 2 weeks. And the only regret I have is that it is hurting my daughter. No, not a regret, just hurting for her part. My husband, well that's a totally different story. He is a very strong-willed person and I have always been told what to do and when to do it by him. If I had dared to do things differently then, I would hear it and also I would hear that I am good enough. I have been verbally abused for years! But, the biggest thing for me was that the things that I loved dearly in life, was made out as petty stuff. I was contained in a box where he wanted me. And so, when I told him that it is over, he was dumbstruck! How on earth can little old me pluck up the courage to do something as life-changing like this? Not me, not this little contained, not good enough girl. But you know, I am NOT that contained little girl....... I am a person in own right! I have passions, needs, life! And when I am with my'cuz' he ignites the very core of me!!!!! I feel like I am all I can be! Vibrant, sexy, loved (oh sooooo loved)! I don't have to stand back for everybody or everything! When I hear this man talking on his phone(doing business) my heart swells with pride for him! He is professional, to the point about what he wants, and when he works, he works damn hard!!! I can see his eyes light up when he speaks about a project, and I know that he is living his passion. I want to share that with him! Be there when things are smooth sailing, and when he has problems with whatever....... My heart belongs to this man! I only feel one heartbeat, that of ours together. Even when we are in each others arms our selective hearts beat with the same rythem! I am keeping this diary so that one day, we can show our kids what happend...... And they will understand why it happened! If your soulmate is out there (and believe me they are) you will meet him/her. When you least expect too!